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so.. after a month of going back and forth, literally like back and forth each day, i am now officially and finally single. it's going to be such a weird time for me cause as most of you know, I haven't really been single since before senior year of high school! haha and now i'm in grad school. i have no experience in dating, just serious relationships. soooo, it'll probably be really sucky until i get the hang of all this alone time, and having to call ppl to hang out instead of just having that guy that you know will wanna hang out with you. and i'll have to get all dressed up for class not because i like to (which i do) but cause now i'm "on the market"... wtf is that? haha. i sound like a piece of meat. and i know that my reaction to things that are difficult is just to not participate. like i can totally see myself just hanging out at my apt and catching up on class and having the best grades cause i'm too scared to put myself out there and have fun with new ppl i don't necessarily know. *sigh...

i'm glad there seems to be some finality to this situation tho. and jon and i are still friends; i mean we have 5 more episodes of grey's anatomy to get thru!